Long Serious Post

Lately I think there has been something wrong with me. My life is perfect. I have fantastic friends, I'm close to my family, have good grades, the boys I'm seeing are all awesome but something is missing. And it's killing me trying to figure out what it is. I'm kinda lethargic lately. I don't really feel like doing anything even when I'm doing things. Maybe it's lack of AMH to keep me sane but you really can't be that dependant on anyone, even your best friend. Maybe it's some kind of karma. Maybe my life is pointless. And it really might be. I mean I don't really do anything. Maybe that's the problem. Maybe I need a job or I need to volunteer somewhere. Maybe it's that I don't have any idea who I am really. Sometimes I feel like I'm just going through life like I think everyone expects me to. Maybe I'm not rebelling enough. Maybe I'm lonely. I have a lot of theories. Maybe it's that guy that I can't get out of my head because I care about him and he could care less about me like that. Maybe it's just tonight. Maybe I'm saying things are good when they aren't. Maybe I need a psychologist. How are you supposed to know what's wrong with you?